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How could I have been so foolish...
Forgetting boundaries, limits...
Speaking as if am to be heard, as if I had a right to...
as if I mattered enough to be listened to...
How could closed me decide to open up so much..to someone I didn't know enough...
What had I done!
how did I dare speak of bells lights horses and vampires to one who hardly knew me and one I hardly knew.
The vulnerability of it all.
The trust that people build over a lifetime...I had lost a self to one I hardly knew...one who did not know enough how and where I lived.
I had spoken out what should die within me.
Yet I could not negate that it was a presence I felt happy in, a presence I had trust in so much that it didn't matter to speak out a world that never saw light.
And that first sense of hurting begins anew!
Hmmm... doesn't the human self know when it was heading for the thorn and yet that tempatatioin to place it right where it hurt!