Murmur

What the hell was it?
What explained the faith, the trust as if known for a lifetime?
What explained that murmur of faith in my heart since the first meet?
Friendship undeclared mutually, womanhood ignored, manhood hardly a role.
I do not know, am I denying what is and is not?
I do not know the answers to the endless queries that pass through me.
I just know the heart held to a murmur of faith. That I placed trust, unquestioned trust a trust that refused to die through inexplicable cut offs... a trust that did not budge through months unseen, unheard.
I do not know what made me reach out so much.
I just know ever since dad's death, nobody ever succeeded in making me feel so happy, so wanted, so much cared for that even a few words could wound as if a zillion ones drove right through the heart!
A murmur of faith...