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You retire to silence again.

I wonder at the way you punctuate a broken silence.

You will never know how I wallowed deep through pain.

I will perhaps never let you know…

 how much it affected me….

How much I withdrew within through your sudden silence…

Amidst it all I sense you shared thoughts with those I let you know not to..

I will never let you know….

How much it broke my faith to have had to seek a wish…

How much it shook my hope to watch you avoid…

I will never let you know…

How much I died within when though a crisis I trusted you through ..no enquiry for days …

That sudden coldness after the amazing way we just managed to trust…

That none of them could defeat my spirit…none…

And yet when you chose to see me coloured lens

I will never let you know…

How much it hurt in a final way..

When I sought to speak out , you chose silence again..

Perhaps that is how I lost my ability

To even step in where I found comfort in you