How does betrayal feel like....

How does betrayal feel like?
Especially when it is from ones trusted, looked up to , respected.
Or when it is from those you least expected would.
It feels like a moth memory of a butterfly dream that settled down a heart that loses its ability to ever trust again.
It feels like the dark shadows across an empty floor when you wonder if a certain silence, if a certain avoidance was decided before after or through your loss.
Sometimes, it is better to just sense a betrayal than the knowledge of who the traitor was.
It is easier to be pushed away by an evil that saw your ruin than to turn around and know who pushed you down.
What if it were one of those you had trusted beyond all doubt or respected beyond all conditions?
Then wouldn't you feel a butterfly dream settle down like a moth eaten nightmare.