One of those polite courteous nods exchanged.
Smiles exchanged.
Struggles unknown. The pain unknown.
Two most polite strangers who met because they were meant to meet.
Destined to meet.
Just to meet in polite nods, courteous smiles.
Thoughts, the unspoken drown as usual between the exchanges of those at our feet.
Time slips through hesitant fingers.
I needed to leave. Not that I was required to remain.
I struggle both with the fatigue of a set back and the aloneness hardly known to him.
Yet, the struggle days through...
A presence I held to in my most painful moments.
An absence I folded in a hidden moment.
He hardly notices the pain. Ignores the departure. Ignores my momentary linger to take leave.
Politely unwanted.
I leave nodded, smiled, ignored.
I leave a part of myself behind.
For the first time I am unable to take leave for the days to come.
Perhaps a harder path towards the final departure.
It felt easier to hear a door thud beside the flipped side of something within me.
I step out, wrap emotions carefully, fold away thoughts, neatly stacked in, walk unmeasured steps to aloneness again.
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