IF

If he...the man you deem yours..

Likes you through fun time

Shuns you through problems

Puts you  the end of  a priority list

Ignores if his friends degrade you

And slights your hurting about it,

If he...the man you deem yours

Finds the heart to forsake you

In a life-death crisis

If he...the man you deem yours

compromises your trust
To save another's life
At the cost of yours 

If he...the man you deem yours

Speaks to settle scores

When your life is awash

If he ...the man you deem yours

Plays your sentiments down

And you always are the last

To know his happy events
If he... the man you deem yours
Hesitates to let you be
Part of his home
If he... the man you deem yours
Fears to let you know
Where he lives

If he... the man you deem yours

Does not feel like seeing you

when you are broken

If he ...the man you deem yours

Speaks even a word
of your world with him

To others as madness

And says he cares

 A straw for your grief

If he ...the man you deem yours

Can stay away

The day your world falls apart

If he ...the man you deem yours

Can choose to trust others

Far more he does your heart

If he...the man you deem yours..

Listens to your experience
And terms it a story and

Needs proof to validate

Your grief

If he...the man you deem yours..

Measures and counts you

And quantifies you against others

If he...the man you deem yours..

Repeatedly subtly states

His presence is his favour to you
And yours a forced presence

If he...the man you deem yours.

Makes you dread he will leave and

Hangs you by an emotional yo-yo string

Then, My mad woman

You were, to the man you deem yours

Not a Queen as you fancy.

You were just a pawn

In a tricky game.