Trust perhaps is the most gullible word in every relationship. When I was eight my friend Christie looked at me and said judas you have broken my heart!You are an animal. I felt my heart break too for i did not want either to be judas or the animal. My ambition then in life was to be an angel.So I hung my head in shame and guilt while she lectured me on how i had betrayed by confessing to her mother that my friend and I ate wax candles in the recess every day. That i had let her mother know that her daughter had told me eating candle wax in the chapel would help me become an angel. That was my first deep recognition of breach of trust.
The most dangerous animal on earth someone told me is a human being. Now... i never thought human beings were animals. The first time I realized that I was an animal was when I read in my first form the line man is an animal. I could not believe my eyes. I reread again and then approached my all time mentor my dad. I felt very upset that I was just an animal and the harder part was that so was my dad an animal. But now older and wiser I know man is an animal oh yeah so is his better half which means I am essentially an animal.
Through the years i saw such dangerous animal instincts in every animal i encountered and in my inner struggles. Oh no i saw uncles willing to see my dad dead to acquire his property.... and i understood my dad's smile at my five year old tear filled eyes that I anusha was an animal as per my general knowledge text that said on page 4 " MAN is an ANIMAL". I had asked him is there any way i can stop being an animal, i want to be an angel. He had smiled then but my little heart was convent bred and I knew i had to be an angel. Through the years I realized angels like heaven are abstract concepts. That good and evil are not exclusive categories but essentially the choices we make either as conscious animals or as subconscious ones.
